And It Gets Worse.

Alexis is leaving youtube because she grew out of dolls. Now I feel a lot of pressure to give them up. I know it's my decision, but I can't help feeling like... A little kid now that she's moved on.

Growing Up...

*Sigh* It's been bugging me for the past couple days. Actually, ever since I came back from my break. It feels as though there is a wall in between me and dolls, me and youtube. And I hate it! I found out that one of my best friends is growing out of dolls, and it makes me wonder. But then I see my doll's faces, and I think, "how could I ever move on?" but sometimes it feels like I need to move on. It kills me inside to think that a chapter of my life may be closing. I saw some girl with an american girl doll walking through the mall today, and I loved it. Now I'm thinking about how much we have made dolls more than just that: Dolls. They have become so much more. Am I ready to leave that behind? I don't know. Maybe I'm moving on, maybe it's just a phase. Whatever happens, know that I am the same person I've always been. I don't love dolls any less, I just have been feeling - disconnected. Yeah, it sucks but it's life. :] ULGH. Love you always,
Millie <333