And It Gets Worse.

Alexis is leaving youtube because she grew out of dolls. Now I feel a lot of pressure to give them up. I know it's my decision, but I can't help feeling like... A little kid now that she's moved on.

Growing Up...

*Sigh* It's been bugging me for the past couple days. Actually, ever since I came back from my break. It feels as though there is a wall in between me and dolls, me and youtube. And I hate it! I found out that one of my best friends is growing out of dolls, and it makes me wonder. But then I see my doll's faces, and I think, "how could I ever move on?" but sometimes it feels like I need to move on. It kills me inside to think that a chapter of my life may be closing. I saw some girl with an american girl doll walking through the mall today, and I loved it. Now I'm thinking about how much we have made dolls more than just that: Dolls. They have become so much more. Am I ready to leave that behind? I don't know. Maybe I'm moving on, maybe it's just a phase. Whatever happens, know that I am the same person I've always been. I don't love dolls any less, I just have been feeling - disconnected. Yeah, it sucks but it's life. :] ULGH. Love you always,
Millie <333

"You Know My Name. Not My Story."

Have you guys ever been so bored that you just search really depressing videos on YouTube? Yeah, well I do. People with ED and strange mental conditions (like this little girl with scitzophrenia <-- idk how to spell that) So I came across these videos called, "the notecard challenge," "you know my name, not my story," "my story," things like that. And a lot of these videos were just so flipping depressing DX My life's not all that bad. Trust me, it's been hard beyond belief. But you wouldn't believe some of the things these girls and boys wrote on these notecards. So if you guys could go check out my video... And remember... You know my name, Not my story. <3

Millie (sorry it's normal today XD)

A Room Tour????

MMKAYY so I've been thinking about doing a doll room tour... But I'm kinda concidering NOT doing it. WHYY? well, idk I just feel a little insecure about it. which I KNOW I shouldn't, but I can't help it anyway. Sooo please comment (either here or on my youtube channel) whether you'd like to see one or not? I don't want to make it if no one wants to see it either XD So please do me a HUGEYYY favor and tell me what you think! PWEEEAASSEEE?! Thankyas!

<3
Millerz

FML right now.

Oh, god I'm a mess right now. So, I've been totally uninspired for videos lately, I found out the very thing that holds me to earth is moving halfway across the country this summer, I haven't been able to sleep lately, and GAHHH I just feel like crap. Usually I'm a happy gurlie, but lately I've just been really... sad. It's mostly about the whole moving thing, but it's tearing me apart so much, that's the reason I can't sleep. I'm so so so so so scared that I'm growing out of dolls O_o it can't happen. IT JUST CAN'T. I don't know what to do! Thank goodness it's the weekend, because I need a break. FROM MY LIFE -_- Trust me, I'm not depressed or anything, just mentally exhausted. Know the feeling?

A short break...

Hey guys! so if you're reading this, you've probs read my channel. THEN you're probs like... WHA?! Well, here it goes. So for the past couple months, I've been OBSESSED with youtube. Like, obsessed. it was taking up too much of my time. becoming SUCH a priority. But lately, I've felt disconnected. Like we just were growing apart, me and youtube. (ehem, correction, youtube and I.) Same with my dolls. I've felt, i don't know. Disconnected. Like i wasn't focused on them as much. I haven't made a good video in forever, and i'm totally uninspired. wiped clean of all creativity. woah, dramatic much???? So, after much thought, I've decided to take a break from the computer, from youtube. Just until February 17th (friday) So sorry to my new collab, i feel like the most unreliable person ever DX i love you. please understand that i really just need some time to focus on other passions. like dance, and my friends. I just need to spend some time not having to worry about updating my friends and checking my messages on youtube. It's nothing you or anyone else did. My friends are amazing, and so supportive. this is probably a surprise. It is for me too... but i really want this. I'm sorry if any of you are mad at me. You can rant in a comment or email me at lovemillie1223@gmail.com (just my youtube email) I love you more than anything. I'm not leaving forever, but i'm afraid i'll want to if i dont take a break now XD haha i just wrote bread by accident. BAHAHA. See ya laters! Don't miss me too much <3
xoxox
<3 Millie

When someone gets mad...

Don't you hate misunderstandings? when you assume one thing happens, but you find out you got worked up over nothing? then you feel awful because the person you thought you were mad at turns out to be the victim, and you look like the bad guy. It's happened to me recently.
I'm so sorry.
I didn't understand.
I didn't mean to get mad.
Please, I know I overreact. but you should be used to it by now XD jk, no time for jokes. Dude, I hate fighting with you. That email tore me apart, and I'm about to cry. Please forgive me. I can't imagine making you feel like that. I'm so sorry.
♥ your best friend,
Millie

BOYS ARE CONFUZZLING XP

ULGHHH! how are you supposed to tell if they like you? And what if they know you like them, but are freaked out by it...? Then YOU seem like a loser, and they don't like you. Or they just find you annoying and don't like you... or they do like you and are just too wimpy to say it. Or think they're too cool... Someone help me? I just don't get boys -_-

R.I.P cooper ♥

You were the best dog in the world, and i can't believe i didn't get a last goodbye. Hannah loved you, and so did I, and i know your family cared about you more than anything. My baby coop, barkso, no matter what we call you, you will forever be in our hearts. Love forever cooper.

Millie <3